i wanted to update. but i dont want to anymore.

argh! IM SO FREAKING UPSET !!

why is it always me ?!?! whywhywhy !! i dont see it happening to others! what did i do to deserve this kind of stupid treatment ?! what did i do to make you detest me, hate me, abhor me, loathe me, shun me?? did i do something to your ancestors? did i cause your family to have discomfort?

den what? horoscopes not matching? ba zhi not matching? date of birth not matching? or perhaps we're not even fated to be friends, and being friends was a wrong move from the start!

i dont know if you're even bothering to read my diary as the days go by. i dont even know if you're bothered about knowing what happens to me. i think i might as well contract leukemia and die.

i want so much to do something. but jon here, says not to do anything. what should i do? follow my heart, or follow someone else's word?

you still carry the neoprint i took with you. i saw it when xiufeng took it out of your wallet this morning. and when she looked through your school diary, i saw you cover one part of it which was covered with words, and i swear you said that i was looking.

if you are willing to fall out with me cuz of a guy, if u are willing to just throw away our friendship because of a guy, then go ahead. if i hear the word 'yes' from your mouth, then at least i would stop harbouring the hope that we might be friends again.




anw ... fairfield c badminton boys won st. andrews secondary today 3-2. matthew's really proud of them. i heard its a good school and matthew said it was a tought fight. ehs, ms lim going for tmr's match. haha. the boys will be pressurized like crazy man.

/+vous ne pouvez pas perdre que vous n'aves jamais eu -`